Zayn’s “Hurt” + Harry’s “Lies”

2 – Harry never cheated on Zayn, because they were never a monogamous, conventional couple.

“Just A Little Bit Of Your Heart” (JALBOYH) does not mince words over the strange dynamic of Zarry’s relationship. Hmmmoh gee what was going on at the exact time it was written in August 2013? Well, Zayn was getting engaged to Perrie! That means Harry had a firm understanding that he did not have Zayn to himself, and that Zayn’s heart did not belong to him. Hence why we was begging for even a small piece of it. This is the overarching conflict of their relationship. Harry has always wanted more than Zayn was willing to give, but Zayn kept him around for…… (well, let your imaginations run wild. Or read This Thing Upon Me.) Harry also speaks of broken promises in his songs, along with his incurable loneliness and unquenchable jealousy. The sad thing is, Zayn is cognizant of the torment he is inflicting on Harry: “I know it’s taking all your strength to keep restrained…” and “I’m watching you cry…it’s a gamble to take any more of you…”

Where this becomes troubling is that despite Harry knowing Zayn is not fully his, JALBOYH alludes to them carrying on a relationship in spite of this fact. Meaning, both of them knowingly engaged each other in a romantic and sexual way behind the scenes while Zayn was with Perrie (and eventually Gigi.) Yet, it’s understandable why they would, since I personally believe they were secretly head over heels for each other since day one (especially late 2011) so when Perrie started dating Zayn officially in like April 2012, I’m positive Zarry had already fooled around.

Their behavior and body language and sleeping in the same bed and snuggling on the couch in late 2011 proved they were much more than friends. Harry used Louis and the Larry bromance as a distraction for a while to hide what he was doing with Zayn, but once things became serious with Zayn, he left that bromance in the dust in 2012.

So they carried on this unofficial thing for years, and I believe Harry was always the one wanting more and being denied it, as JALBOYH and all his songs for 1D like “Happily” and “Something Great” allude to. So whenever I say Zarry “broke-up” I mean within the confines of the strange dynamic they have, and mainly I’m referring to major fallouts were they stop being intimate for periods of time. I don’t mean “break-up” in a conventional way, which is why you often see me use quotations around the word “break-up.”

Therefore, people speculating Harry was cheating on Zayn are just illogical. How can he cheat on a man he had been admittedly sharing since 2013, and who would not even say he loved Harry until like 2020? Also, how could he be cheating when Zayn was always the one in a long-term relationship with a female: Geneva Lane (2010) Rebecca Ferguson and Stephanie Davis (2011) Perrie (2012-2015) Gigi (2015-2021.) Therefore Harry was free to date whoever he wanted, because he couldn’t have the person he wanted most. This sentiment is always reflected in his music, which proves how superficial and fleeting his relationships with other people were.

How tf could Harry “cheat” on Zayn? Especially when Zayn made it clear where he wanted to be at all times (hiding behind a skirt) whereas Harry is often publicly single for long stretches of time. Harry seems to have bedwarmers (“Woke up the girl who looked just like you, I almost said your name…we haven’t spoke since you went away…”) and has dated people superficially since the beginning.

The longest relationship he had was with Camille Rowe, and that lasted barely a year, plus he was on tour the entire time. So if you distill the actual time they spent together down to days, it would probably only equate to a couple of months like all of Harry’s other dates. And he never stopped writing about Zayn no matter who he was dating, and seemed to be the one who pursued Zayn after 2015.

So you see here Harry continues to show evidence of being the one who always wanted more (and always struck me personally as WAITING on Zayn) and was never given the opportunity to have Zayn wholly to himself, and had to settle for sharing him (thereby rendering himself miserable, jealous, and lonely—which all bleeds into his music.)

He even said things like: “Till then I won’t give my love away, darling, I’m forever only yours…” and “For your eyes only…” and “I can feel you take ahold…I can feel you take control, of who I am and all I’ve ever known…loving you’s the antidote…” which demonstrates that all he truly is and all the love he has in his heart to give is reserved for Zayn. Harry’s entire discography speaks to not only unrequited love, but also unrequited DEVOTION and LOYALTY.

Regardless of what bleeds into Zayn’s music, and regardless of the ways he may have felt “hurt” by Harry over the years, he has always caused the root problem in their relationship, in my opinion. He has kept their relationship dysfunctional and complicated (a part from Harry’s contributions) because of his internal confliction (“Tightrope”) and his non-negotiable condition of needing to be with a female publicly (the engagement + the Zigi baby), and he even admits he wants “Too Much.

In conclusion: he is the creator of his own miseries, along with Harry’s miseries. Phucking get it???


Of course there are the lyrics in “Falling” which people try to say means Harry cheated (which Zayn seemingly refers to in “Outside” while admitting he himself is not innocent either) and again the same logic applies. Zayn’s fans tend to ignore that he says he is not innocent either, so that means if he is accusing Harry of “cheating,” then he is admitting to cheating himself (we been knew.)

But I don’t actually consider this cheating (from Zarry’s end) because they were never a monogamous couple, and Zayn was always somewhere tucked up under Gigi. In actuality, you can make a better argument that Zayn cheated on both Perrie and Gigi with Harry and with multiple other partners (substantiated by photos and firsthand accounts from the females) but that’s a conversation no one is ready for. That’s a FACT too inconvenient for Zstans, so they ignore the evidence of Zayn with strippers in 2013, and him holding hands with a blonde in Thailand, and the massage therapist from 2018, to make up bullspit conspiracy theories about Harry sleeping with anything that moves to deflect from Zayn’s wrongdoing.

Harry also alludes to having did whatever he may have done out of jealousy and loneliness, oh ya know, during the times he’s forced to be without Zayn because Zayn chooses to be with Gigi (the person he got pregnant after Fine Line dropped.) So if you call Harry sleeping with someone else while being miserable and lonely (because Zayn is choosing to be with Gigi) “cheating” then that proves Zayn holds Harry to an unfair double standard of fidelity, and in that hypothetical situation, their relationship sounds QUITE psychologically abusive.

Meanwhile Harry continues to prove his jealousy over Zayn’s women (meaning he only wants to be with Zayn) with songs like “Girl Crush” and “Cherry,” and proves his devotion to Zayn with songs like “Still The One” and “Fine Line.”


PAGE FOUR: Harry Styles Is Not A Liar

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33 thoughts on “Zayn’s “Hurt” + Harry’s “Lies”

  1. i think it is worth mentioning that zayn is also having a very alarming drug problem. I remember watch a video by Shallon Lester on this matter 2 years ago where she talked about this his twisted dynamic with gigi , and his team threatened to sue her if she didnt take it down. then just yesterday i found an article on a *gossip* website (exposingsmg.com ) about zayn that really stuck with me because it explained THE SAME exact issues that shallon lester had cited. It is all alleged though so i’m just telling you out of curiousity although i know how much you care about the validity of facts. anyways allegedly zayn has been having multiple od scares throughout especially the last 2 years, sources cited that nobody basically has known the real him because he has been on drugs pretty much 100% of the time for the last ten years. apparently gigi has had a huuge problem with drugs (c*ke) too and only with the baby she’s finally found a ‘new purpose’ for her life. the source clearly stated that the relationship between g and z is almost compulsive, they go from periods of time completely obsessed with each other and high all the time to spending even longer periods where they dont even talk. right now the source claims that he still hasnt stopped taking drugs and like the source said , ‘everyone is shocked that he’s still going’. the hadids don’t give a fuck about him, apparently yolanda is not pleased with him still being in gigi’s life because she wants her to bag a billionaire like she did. she thinks zayn is a b list sell out . anyways.. 🙁

    1. @anonymous…I’ve read the same re. Zayn and drugs. Also mentioned was that he had overdosed several times…10/2019 was the last time noted. I hope this is not true…I will say that he looks healthy and drug-free. However, his excessive use of weed is a problem alone. It is obvious that he has processing difficulties which could be related to his ADHD..while not serious, any chemical that alters the thought process can result in erratic and impulsive behavior. He exhibits both. Also having an impact on his creative endeavors (writing).

      In my opinion, if Zayn had someone in this life that he trusted and cared enough about him to help him tackle and overcome his “demons” there would be no limit to his happiness and success. Harry could be that person, if Zayn would quit pushing him away.

      1. I had no idea Zayn has ADHD and really feel for him if he’s dealing with it particularly if he’s unsupported. I found brief comment in his book about being diagnosed but no mention of management or medication. His crippling anxiety may be a symptom of the ADHD. Could the weed be attempt at self medicating / managing???

        1. When ADHD is managed properly, via medicine or therapy, it most often enhances creativity. According to research, weed tends to increase feelings of anxiety and paranoia. In addition, processing disorders are very common with ADHD. In my opinion, this is one of the major reasons that Zayn is so hard to understand both in his actions and music. When listening to his music, I get confused at times because he tends to contradict himself….this is evidence of difficulty in processing and communicating effectively.

          1. Agreed correct diagnosis and treatment can be completely life changing for better. Person I know very closely with ADHD wasn’t particularly hyper (though definite constant fidget) so went under the radar until mid teens. His primary symptom was extensive visual focusing / processing issues that were misdiagnosed as being eye function related. By early teens with extra hormone load of puberty the symptoms worsened significantly and his ability to intuitively “manage around” them hit it’s limit resulting in absolutely crippling anxiety. Very fortunate to finally to get a correct diagnosis with visual/other ADHD symptoms have been very well managed via medication. Difference is incredible and he’s able to be his best himself.

    2. Yup, I find it weird that we never talk about the high probability that he has multiple addictions, and not only to weed but to hard, life-endangering drugs. Many blind items report on it, and the fact that he OD’d several times (the latest reported one being in sept./oct. 2019). Sigh 😔

  2. I have always know one to be more outgoing socially and the other not. But either way, relationships are never perfect. I don’t kno if that was their issue thou bc I remember hearing that Zayn normally was pretty loud and silly when he wasn’t being filmed. I just don’t think that warrants Harry being cast as the unloyal, drunk party guy and Zayn the victim. The both probably have their share of wrongs but I just think Harry has dealt with visible more.

  3. I honestly do not know how anyone can point the finger at Harry. Outside of Zarry, Harry is super unproblematic. His loyalty shows how he continues to wrk with ppl way back from 1d. So It makes no sense how ppl cld be so quick to make Harry the bad guy ONLY when it comes to Zayn. NEWSFLASH: NOBODY LOVED/LOVES ZAYN MORE THAN HARRY. ALL HE EVER WANTS FROM ZAYN IS TO LOVE, ADORE, AND TAKE CARE OF HIM. It amazes me that anyone can see it any differently. And Zayn being a victim…really?!?! Yeah Zayn is a victim, of being in love with a man that would walk thru fire for him. Poor Zayn.
    I’m not saying any bad about Zayn or Harry bc I have no clue what goes on. I’m only saying that when it comes to Zarry, Harry has been the one that’s been given the short end of the stick. I don’t thk H is a victim either bc he is not being forced to put up with the baggage Z comes with but he is definitely not the bad guy. I don’t want to paint Z in any bad light either bc I thk he is truly special and kind but has some shat that he isn’t ready to face, accept, and be proud of. Hiding and running from ur truth, and living by the view of others is a ticking time bomb. So many unhealthy things will come from that.
    I love Zarry and do hope they find their way and start over without this BS. I believe, together is where their hearts will be the happiest. And I do believe, without all this hiding etc…. they would be an amazing, beautiful, loving, powerful couple.

    1. @Rang I can’t remember where I was online, Twitter maybe, but someone actually wrote that Zayn has to put up with Harry being a “hyper-social extravert” and people were agreeing with it and saying what a burden it was for Z, so I didn’t feel comfortable posting a reply, so I will do it here:
      There’s nothing wrong with being an extravert, just as there is nothing wrong with being an introvert. I’m an introvert and I have only had relationships with extraverts, I know I can only speak for myself and I can’t assume this is the case for all introverts, but I don’t think H’s personality has changed since he and Z met.

      1. My understanding of introversion and extraversion is that it describes to what energizes, balances and drains you as a person. Introverts have a very real need for quiet time and alone time to recharge. Lack of these essentials is really destructive. Extraverts need noise, activity, energy and engagement with others to recharge. Neither is a constant state of being and most of us exist somewhere along the scale between the extremes and where we sit may vary situational. Kinda wonder if that’s why being alone is such a strong issue for Harry. He sings about it and people talk about him staying with friends and why he keeps so busy. Zayn on the other hand appears to needs alone time in a big way. I can see how those contrasting need coulds be a problem in a hidden relationship that’s not secure/acknowledged for what it is and lead to misunderstandings and miscommunication despite deep attraction and love between the parties.

        1. @idkwhy I was brought up to believe my introversion was a defect and the things I did to recharge my battery were weird and made me different. I am weird and different, but in a cool way. Ha-ha

          I think H and Z are so young and still figuring themselves out and they’ve probably alternated between spending a lot of time together to spending a little time together. My extrovert and I have been dating a long time and he knows if I have to be away from him, it’s to recharge my batteries and not because I don’t like his company. I get why Z smiles on the farm and looks miserable in the city on a pap walk, I don’t understand why someone would want him to be miserable.

          I saw a video of One Direction in the early days and I think they were in Australia and Zayn was saying they were by some large, unpredictable birds, so he was hanging back away from them, but Harry was chasing them. I always thought that summed up their dynamic. BTW, I would totally be Z in that situation.

  4. Great post. Harry is definitely the one who has showed willingness to compromise and accept whatever little is given. Problem with that approach is you can get taken for granted and it’s assume you’ll cope with whatever happens and keep showing up. But it’s very powerful when a person like that says enough and quits the field of play.
    It’s so unexpected and “out of character” that others don’t know how to react.

  5. I’m a die hard Zarry and can’t seem to stop watching videos of them. I love them both but I really am tired of Zayn and his BS. Harry deserves someone who’s going to live him the way he loves. Every time I see the PaP walk, Zayn looks smaller and smaller. This last one she walked behind him and seemed to be the MAN in the relationship. He seemed to just be trudging along. Sad! But he deserves all the misery hes getting because he chooses to be there. Like she’s got something over him. He seemed more confident during 1 D days and even when he and Harry seem to be mad at each other he didn’t look weak like he does now. Hell, he put out a whole album and only gave the fans 2 nights live while he got high. I honestly think he has ruined any chance of coming back from two albums that have flopped back to back. Like he don’t care. Sad. He better wake up before he’s a has been in a loveless relationship and we all know the effects that can have on the people involved. My thoughts are on Harry and this new movie. He may be acting but this may be the catalyst that pushes him to move on. Can you imagine what could happen after he plays this role? We going to be saying “Zarry who” lol

  6. H. Put his life in risk for Z. “Literally”. On Valentine’s Day when he was Robbed. He did not give them his phone. Even when they show him a Knife.
    He probably had things that compromise Z. So he did not going to give them his phone no matter what was about to happen to him.
    Imagine that. Even when they no longer in a relationship right now.
    H. IS A HONORABLE MAN. A MAN WITH BIG BALLS.

  7. I believe in Harry Styles only
    When it comes to zarry I will only takes his words.
    If zayn really want to makes this relationship works he needs to solves his issue (and I’m not saying Harry doesn’t have one) and sometimes I feel like zayn purposefully write himself as a victim of his life. And I think they both did ‘break up’ after the baby announcement because I have a strong feeling they still together up untill February at least.
    And I don’t think with the kind of man Harry is, he would make himself be with zayn right now, because wether zayn love Gg or not, there will always be a child between them now. And I don’t think Harry want to be that man who takes a father from the child mother. And I don’t want him to, I want him to value himself above everything but I don’t think that applied to zayn because he will always be the one to surrender and put himself down, be it apologize, concede defeat when he realize zayn might never love himself as much as he love zayn, he’s always the one who compromise. And for zayn continuation about to be with a woman I don’t think Harry willing to take it anymore he’s a grown up adult now and he will not play this games anymore with him,
    And about his golden song I don’t think he wants zayn to open up about his sexuality because he will never put that pressure on zayn, he just want to love and be loved zayn alone without any side pairing include even though they haven’t(?) come out but at least he will have zayn to himself, and now I think zayn finally put on some effort in winning Harry back and I still waiting of Harry new album to determine where their relationship stand right now. You might got a headaches reading this and I apologise in advance because English is not my First language and I have so many thoughts that I want to share it’s a mess in head right now.
    Have a good day love 😘😘😘

  8. Gigi is Zayn’s handler. He is in the sunken plece and has been for a very long time.

  9. I completely agree with ‘it’s you’. I feel like that’s why Zayn made the distinction between ‘she’ (perrie) and ‘you’ (Harry). I also think that if he mentions lying in some context he may be refering to not believing how much H actually cares for him because he has problems loving himself therefore arguing H can’t possibly be telling the truth. Kinda like “If I can’t love myself, how could he?!”

    One of the writers of ‘Entertainer’ said she had written the concept of the song and that Z really liked it and even kept some of her vocals in the chorus I believe (I may be wrong about that). So this could have just been a conceptual idea that he liked or if anything, this only kinda fits perrie if you actually think about it.
    Why wouldn’t he occasionally write stuff inspired by their toxic/fake relationship.

    He has so many songs, how can we say they’re all about Harry when he could reference some aspects of his PR relationships to alleviate his mind as well?! I think while some songs are definitely very personal, he also plays with different concepts which is very intriguing for a writer and may sometimes feel safer to express certain emotions instead of doing it directly.

    For me the lyrics in ‘outside’ sound like he feels he is being replaced in that person’s life. “someone else being in your bed” doesn’t sound like a one time thing/hookup to me but rather his lover maybe seeing someone new and then he says he can’t feel too bitter about it because “he’s not that innocent” in how things went down, “TWO wrongs make no right” etc.

    Who knows really?

    1. Anon,I don’t think he’d write/sing about a toxic,overly fabricated relationship while he’s making a series of story through his MV’S DTD-LM-Entertainer-SD-Better-Vibez.
      Also,there wouldn’t be a reason why H would respond to Entertainer’s mv with LU’s mv,and use it’s beats for the opening of his sophomore album or where the same colour & cloth quality of the magenta jacket Sophia wore,for FL’s cover.
      They’re a part of Hollywood,there’s lot more than what meets our eyes.

      But again,that’s just my derivation.You can believe whatever you want and have your opinions.

  10. I only ever ask you questions which can be looked into and be talked about later with actual “proof”.
    And people are all here asking you about “Who or what do you think this or that song is about?”…and I’m like???
    Sis she’s not ZARRY WIKIPEDIA you know!?
    Leave her alone please for a sec she needs her mental health just as much as we do

    I get that they’re cool people who respect your perspective on things but so do I–
    The thing that these people need to pay attention to a little bit more is that maybe sometimes they’re going too far and hurting you in some ways they don’t even understand
    idk…

  11. One thing that’s about Zayn is how irrationally jealous he used to get over Harry sometimes. I mean we all love jealous Zayn and I think it can be kind of funny, but some things he got jealous over were literally nothing. Unfortunately, with a new perspective on the Zarry dynamic after all this time, I now find it to be a little controlling. For example, let’s say Harry broke some kind of hypothetical agreement they had, like maybe they were not supposed to hook up with other men, and Harry did it. Zayn is a human being, so he’s entitled to whatever emotions that brings like anger or hurt, but logically, he was no real right to punish Harry for it. And we can see that Zayn has gotten angry with Harry for literally paying NIALL (the most inconspicuous straight man of them all) more attention than him. All of this is just to say that Zayn does not exactly have a clear head when it comes to what he expects out of Harry. You can’t push someone away sometimes and then get mad when they’re not paying attention to you/giving you want other times. You can’t keep someone out of your bed and then get mad when they go to someone else’s. But Mr. Unfuckwitable seems to think he can do whatever he want and if Harry really loves him, he would always be there. And like you said, Harry gets the short end of the stick of all this confusion every single time.

    What’s sad is that Harry will punish HIMSELF for hurting Zayn more than anyone, whereas Zayn hurts Harry over and over again and expects him to understand it. They need to be over and I kind of hope they have been for a while. Whatever “coincidences” Zayn comes out with after all this time, it raises the eyebrow, but it’s hardly enough to continue to root for them. Thanks for taking the time to write about this.

    1. 🙌🏼 So well said. I totally agree, so many « jealous Zayn » moments from the 1D days always seemed so irrational to me, especially since he was in a public relationship at the time (and hooking up with several girls as well). And his jealousy over Harry’s affection for Niall is just so over the top and ridiculous. Sometimes jealousy is « cute » and all, but in this case I agree that it seems controlling and manipulative. Why feel aggressively territorial when you’re not willing to give anything tangible to the other, or at the very least spare their feelings from unnecessary bearding 🤦🏽‍♀️
      Regarding the recent « proofs » in his MVs, I’m in the same boat. I see them, but I’m also like…Why? Why now? Why do it while you’re going deeper and deeper into the circus of your hetero/public relationship? It doesn’t bring me any hope at this point, because their entire dynamic seems so unhealthy to me. I just hope that Harry stands his ground and refuses to compromise on anything anymore, and especially not his self-worth, self-perception, and his luminous soul and heart.

      1. Exactly! It’s just kinda like… same shit, different day. But it’s nice that Zayn seems to want to honor Harry in his art. I’ll always enjoy that. But until he can commit all the way to H, I’m hoping Zarry stays dead.

    2. I so agree with everything you said here ,I just hope harry have the will and strength to move on.its time to do harry and be really happy honestly most time he doesn’t seems happy to me and I pray the day he finally is completely.

    3. I completely wholeheartedly agree with you. We already know Harry will do anything for him, from the day one we already can see that, but will zayn do the same for Harry? fuck no he won’t.

  12. The situation at this point is absurd and there are too many contradiction, so I don’t understand anything about those two anymore.
    zayn really irritates me with these behaviors, he is with gigi but meanwhile does things for harry…I just don’t understand how he can go on like this. Harry also still seems involved in zayn, and he irritates me too because he should think more of himself and understand what kind of person he wants by his side in his life.
    thank you for your work, keep it up!

  13. Dear ad zarry is over finally over😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔 what u think Ad?????

  14. How I wish iT’s YoU was about P,it fits her,but have you read Zayn’s book?
    Also,who do you thing wRoNg is about?

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